Friday, July 29, 2022

Poem: Star of Glass

When did it go south?
What did I do wrong?
When did I become a bother
If I did my best to be a lover?

It started so natural, it started so bright,
You made laugh and feel so light.
A dream come true, perfect start,
And here I am, a falling star.

You asked for time, and I got silence.
You asked for patience, the fall started.
Asked me to stay; come deep breath.
Had faith, had trust, had pixie dust,
You closed the door and then got lost.

I wish I knew, wish it made sense,
I made it all, hoped for the best.

I said "I'm lonely", you said you'd stay.
You promised dates, then blocked my face.

Twinkly, twinkle little star,
How I wish you wouldn't fall.
Up above the world so high.
Made of glass, you fall so bright.


Kinky regards, K!

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Monday, July 25, 2022

Writing Checklist

Has it happened to you that you forget something important, essential, for your well-being? I'm always speaking about others' books, always reviewing others' work, and I realized I've neglected my own creativity. I started writing many times but didn't dedicate enough time to each project, and there are even a few that I have outlined but haven't actually started writing.
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It's not a secret that English is not my first language, and I've said it before that I don't feel I've mastered enough to write the way I'd like to when it comes to fiction or even poetry. However, I feel more confident, and I'm tired of postponing them all. I want to give it a try.

Today I want to share with you a few of my ideas, what I have in mind, and while it's true that I don't know exactly which one I'm going to start with first, what I know for sure is that I'll pick one and, hopefully, finish it this year. 
 
  • Phoenix of Cinder: Queer Snow White + Cinderella fantasy retelling with witches, vampires, and prostitution. Started writing.
  • Nameless: Queer Rapunzel fantasy retelling with immortals. Maybe witches? Barely started.
  • Death, Sweet Death: Queer vampire-fae urban fantasy romance with a witch-writer. Barely started.
  • The Son of the Rose: Fantasy short story; slightly related to The Boy in Red poem. Started writing.
  • The Skyclad Ball: Book of poems. Might include the Boys in Color series. Almost done?
  • AK Project: Non-Fiction book on the Fae. Outlined and research (possibly) done.

I didn't want to include any details or many ideas because I hardly have them clear myself. I don't like knowing exactly what's going to happen, just a few details and having a sense of direction, so I can have some fun while writing. I do need to edit, revisit, rewrite, rephrase, and so on in the middle of the process, and again when I'm done, but I love it like that no matter how tired I end up.

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Friday, July 22, 2022

Poem: The Boy in Grey

I'm so tired of being sleepy,
So tired of being ignored,
I'm so tired of being dead alive
I'm so tired of being tired.

I'm these bones and I'm this meat,
I'm the flesh, the blood, the breath,
Yet I feel empty, void, stuck in the mist,
Trapped between "free" and "flee".

Moon rises, and so the screams.
They come at night when I can't fight.
Moon rises, and so the dreams,
They come at night so I can't sleep.

Screech, shout, cry, my mind shatters.
I lay in pieces as I try to sleep.
I lay in peace as I try to flee.
I lie within. I lay in piss.

Close your eyes, little boy,
Lie in bed, little toy,
Forget today, tomorrow as well,
Dreams in grey, the boy in grey.


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Wednesday, July 20, 2022

Midnight Thoughts: Why do I Abandon Books?

Hey, cuties. You may have noticed I'm not reviewing books as often as I did before, and there's a very good reason for that: I'm abandoning a lot. I'm not proud of it, but not ashamed either. I've been reading for a long time, which means I'm getting more critical. I don't feel the need to finish it if it's bad, and I won't waste my time writing about things I dislike when I can spend it in something potentially better.
As I thought about it, the more sense it made. I don't have the time I had before. I'm not the same person I was before, either. Be it fiction, non-fiction, comic, manga, or whatever, I still love books but can accept the fact that some times it's not meant to be. What started as a few books left behind became many more. Why? It could be any of the following answers or a mix of them:

1. Don't enjoy it: Sometimes it's just a matter of likes and dislikes. I might start reading a book expecting something, and I can get a different thing and still like it, but if it's too different then I won't keep going. It happens all the time, and not because the book is bad or I'm a hater, just because it's not the book for me and I'm not the reader the author wants. Sht happens.

2. Bad style/development/ideas/research/pace: Plain simple, if it's bad, I won't keep going. I started reviewing a series long ago but I gave up after several books with little progress. I can wait, I like slow, but there has to be something else to keep me going. Same for research. I don't like to brag, but I have a Master's, and while it's true that I don't know it all, I can find some information with ease if I want to (but I'm not a stalker). I can tell whether the author knows what they're writing about or no, or if they're biased, in short time, even if I'm not versed in the topic. I don't need to agree, but show me your reasons as if I was a 5 years old. That also applies to fiction, because I don't want endless descriptions and flourishes. Get. To. The point.

3. Toxic/Harmful content: I once abandoned a book because it was promoting rape. It was promoted as a dramatic and dark romance in an omegaverse setting with werewolves. I thought it would be the perfect recipe for a character breaking free from a hierarchical society, but the author was glorifying repeated rape, mental, emotional, and physical abuse, and tried to tell me the main character liked it? Hell no. I like dominance, I love characters who take charge and those who submit because they love it, but abusive relationships are just a no. The author was cynical enough to say "too hot for Amazon" after it was banned. No, bitch, shut the fuck up and leave the keyboard.

4. Due to respect: I recently abandoned a book because of historical inaccuracies (in addition to bad research ergo #2). I expected better coming from an author that I've read and loved already, but I couldn't handle those mistakes. However, I didn't want to impact in a negative way the efforts of so many people, also knowing that it's a book that could help many readers. A friend has it now, and he's liking it, and that's great, but I didn't want to tell people I hated it. If they like a book, love it, find it useful, that's great! It just didn't do it for me.

There are a few books I read in the past and I hated them, and was honest about it and how disenchanted I felt afterwards, but that I'd like to revisit to challenge my view. I do believe that sometimes you're not ready for certain readings because you're either too young or inexperienced, so I'm always leaving the door open for those I leave behind (few exceptions, like that infamous omega-shit).

What about you? How do you decide to abandon a book? Does any of these apply to you? Let me know in the comments!

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Monday, July 18, 2022

Book Review: Key West, Wanna See My…

Rise and shine, pornies. It's been a long since I reviewed anything from this series, and that's because I binged all of it and the first book of the sequel. It was time for a break, but after a good rest and revisint these guys escapes, I want to tell you about Key West, Wanna See My…, book 6 in the Naked Gay Lust, by Ty Debauchee. Thanks to the author for sending me a review copy!

  • Series: Naked Gay Lust #6 (Sequel to the Desire Series)
  • Print Length: 94 pages.
  • Publisher: Self-published (July 25, 2021)
  • Publication Date: July 25, 2021.
  • Genres: Drama, Romance, Contemporary, Erotica
  • Rating: 4 / 5 stars.
WALK THE STREETS NAKED IN KEY WEST! WHAT? WANNA SEE MY…?
An on-again, off-again relationship with Tanner leads Ty to withdraw from a month long Marine Biology course, but a nightmare convinces him to attend anyway.
No Clothing Allowed - A new policy created by Ty's classmates for the pool area at the Marine Biology Institute. The entire class naked at the pool everyday during the course. Even the sexy course assistant instructor joins in. This should be stimulating.
Ty frequently thought this trip could be a great month or an absolute nightmare. Their erotic escapades during this course stretch from Big Pine to Key West, Florida, on land and sea.
Your imagination will hate you if you miss this read.

I wanna start by saying that the last line is completely true. You need to read this for the sake of imagination and fantasies. There are so many scenes and moments where I could only envy the characters for how brave and creative they were. While it's true that the whole thing is very simple, the author keeps it interesting at all times.

I especially liked the way things developed and how emotional the whole process was. Short and fast, yeah, for sure, but cute at the same time. You could feel yourself being transported to the characters whereabouts and their fantasies due to Ty's descriptions.

If I were to say something bad about this book it would be that there is not much substance in it, which is to say it is a simple homoerotic romance that doesn't give much space to character development. If you keep in mind that the whole series is a long-form fantasy, it won't be much of a problem for you. Take it for what it is and you'll enjoy.

Key West, Wanna See My… is a reading that will keep you up for a while until you're done with it. I started it with the intention of advancing just a little bit, and there went the minutes and hours until I was done. It was the perfect distraction for feeling sick, I have to say, and while it tired my body, especially my arms, it did wonder to my mind (and to other body parts, ahem).

About Ty Debauchee:
As an energetic man at 6’4” tall and 195 pounds, I very much enjoy athletic pursuits including basketball, waterskiing, and snow skiing. While having a quiet and shy personality, I value my integrity above all else with loyalty to my friends and family coming in as a very close second.
Growing up with the stress of gay urges in a straight world and struggling to find my place in the world, I frequently used my dreams and fantasies as an emotional crutch to get me through some very challenging times. By sharing these stories in my books, I sincerely hope to ease the stress of others who might be facing the similar challenges and offer an entertaining escape for anyone in need. Website.

Have you read this book? Would you recommend it? Let me know in the comments! Kinky regards, K!

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Wednesday, July 13, 2022

Comic: Artifice

Hello, pornies. I didn't plan to read any comic, honestly, but I saw this one a long ago and decided to give it a try on Sunday night. Suddenly, I was hypnotized by this dramatic love-story that just kept getting better. Time passed me by as I summerged myself in the world of Artifice, by Alex Woolfson and Winona Nelson. It's free to read on the author's website or you can buy a digital or print edition with bonus content!

  • Print Length: 88 pages
  • Publisher: AMW Comics (2011-2012).
  • Publication Date: March 25, 2011 - March 31, 2012.
  • Genres: Drama, Gay, Homoerotic, Romantic, SciFi.
  • Rating: 4 / 5 stars.
Smart guy-on-guy sci-fi.
Listed by The Advocate as one of the Top 5 LGBT Graphic Novels of 2013. Lambda Literary Award Finalist 2014.

Deacon, a prototype android soldier, was ordered by his corporate masters to eliminate a team of scientists who knew too much and he has failed spectacularly. Not only did he let one of his targets live -- 19-year-old human outcast, Jeff Linnell -- he attacked the team sent to retrieve him. Now the Corporation demands answers and they have employed the brilliant and ruthless robopsychologist Clarice Maven to get them.
Deacon seems desperate to conceal the shocking events that took place on Da Vinci 4, but what chance does he have fighting an adversary who can control his every move?

You all know I'm not a big SciFi fan, but sometimes the story hits the right buttons. For me, those buttons were the enemies-to-lovers trope, the drama, the social component, the not-so-perfect future. If you like those ingredients, then you'll love this comic for sure, not only because of them but because the final product itself!

The structure is original, different to what I've read so far, the romance felt natural and organic, and the characters became real in no time. While it's true that it could have been longer, it doesn't bother that much because the chemistry between Deacon and Jeff. I can also say the same about the art, simple yet attractive, with a charm of its own.

Problems? Not enough development, not for me, at least. In would have liked a bit more content regarding the context, the kind of universe these guys live in, what happened to the world as we know it, maybe some hints about how these android soldiers came to happen. The focus in on the romance and that's always great for me, but it did feel a bit unbalanced in the end.

All in all, I loved Artifice. Alex Woolfson did a great job with the script, and Winona Nelson gave it the best of faces. Tender, complicated, filled with a lot of drama and a surprising ending, readers will love it in no time. As of for me, I'm already making time to keep reading Alex's work. The best part is that you get a reading order after this comic.

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Monday, July 11, 2022

Midnight Thoughts: Reviewing Porn

There comes a point in life when you start questioning what you're doing, what you want to do, and what must change. I came to one of those a few days ago, and the idea is crystalizing as I write this. For a while now I've been thinking about my porn reviews and what they mean, how I feel about them, and I came to the conclusion that something had to change.
While it's funny and I like doing them, I don't feel I'm offering anything useful. This is not me saying that I dislike them or think the porn industry is useless, but that I'm questioning whether I'm doing a good work at writing those reviews.

I always want to feel I'm being part of something bigger in what I do, that I'm helping someone or something with my work. Porn reviews were one of the first things I thought about when creating this persona, and I initially thought that it would be a good way to support an industry that gets a lot of unjustified hate. However, things change.

The passion, the interest, the driving force to work on them, I don't feel it the same way as before. I look at my porn reviews and they don't seem as interesting as before. Even those short pornstar bios I wrote long ago, which I'm proud of, feel different now that I look at them.

I won't lie, I tried interviewing a few actors and models, I send a lot of messages and emails, and got little to no response, and that also plays a part in how I feel, but that only made me think more about all this. I guess that, for me, that porn career was a way of exploring my own sexual desires, fantasies, showing a more human side of those actors I admire.

In the end, I want to dedicate my time to something else. Porn, sex, sexuality, and similar topics are all alluring, I won't stop working with those, but I'm still figuring out what I'll do in the future. While I'm not closing the door to writing reviews again, it won't be a priority. It never was, to be honest, not really. I felt much better writing book reviews, my opinions, my experiences with the Alder King, I felt I was giving something bigger than I am. Reviewing porn doesn't give me the same satisfaction. It's fun, it's something different, but it's not the same.

I'm still open to ideas, suggestions, maybe there's something I haven't thought about at this point, but I still want to be part of the porn community in a way. Porn videos have been my escape, my fantasies, my ideas, and even a problem now and then. It's not a perfect part of who Kyler is, but it's a part nonetheless, so I'll still honor it.

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Friday, July 8, 2022

Poem: The Boy in Black

So many noises,
So many voices,
They cloud my mind,
Steal my eyes.

They shut me up,
Water me down.
Build me up,
Then let me fall.

Send me some air so I can breathe,
Come the Reaper, so I can sleep.
I’m sorry I’m flawed, sorry I’m weak,
Just give me a pill, so I can dream.

I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired.
Exhausted.
I’m tired, I’m lonely, cut open,
I’m broken.

Tired of the noise of my own voice,
Becoming a hundred, make me a toy.
I’m tired of living as if I was half-dead,
Give me some air, or end me again.

Life is a circle, I’ll be here tomorrow,
Just give me some rest, save me the sorrow.


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Thursday, July 7, 2022

On Offerings

I think it's safe to say that any kind of witch, no matter how experienced, has done a few offerings. Burning herbs, incense, drawings, candles, gems, food... The possibilities are as endless as stars in the sky and sea. However, I don't do them that often. At least not in the traditional way. I pretty much agree with Mat Auryn regarding the greatest offering to deity, because for me it has to be meaningful. What a better way to honor someone than doing what they teach?
Writing is the most powerful spell I will ever do, but I want to do more. Photo by Craig Adderley.
For me, burning incenses, lighting candles, praying and meditating are good, but what's really meaningful, what I feel makes me a better witch and person in general, is helping others and trying to make the world a better place. Maybe not the whole planet, but at least have a positive impact no matter the scale. BeyoncĂ© says it better when she sings Left this world a little better just because I was here. And no, I'm not comparing myself with Queen B, just saying I want to do the same.

That's one of the driving forces to do what I do. Writing is a pleasure for me, but also a tool. Writing is the most powerful spell I will ever do, and that's why I do it over and over again, almost obsessively, because it matters to me and I have faith that it worked, works, and will always work. Worst case scenario? I heal myself. Best case, I heal someone else, maybe more than one person.

However, I don't only write. I do it to entertain, educate, fight against prejudice and ignorance, but I also want to help others in practical ways, because, in all honesty, all spirituality aside, how does burning candles make the world a better place? If an Atheist looks at it, I can understand why they'd say it's useless. It has happened in my family before.

My maternal Grandma was fasting for religious reasons, and while I could find some meaning, my brother and a cousin did not. I tried to explain to them why, but my family kept getting in the middle just repeating "because it's a sacrifice, it's an offering", to what my brother kept saying "and how does that help anyone?" I had to take my cousin aside and tell her it was a way of Grandma to remind herself to be grateful of the food she could count on every day and be humbler towards those who were not as lucky.

I burn incense, I light candles, I meditate when I can, I'm starting to get more responsable and holding myself accountable for my faults, but I also want to do something practical. I don't want to stay indoors, fill myself with light and kindness, ignorant of what others are going through.

I recently started donating to an immigrant foundation, spoke with a friend about writing a course that could help some incarcerated people who are interested in Paganism, and I'm evaluating what local volunteering options I have to help queer, autistic, masculine-identified youth. I'm learning about my heritage to understand my family better, to help my cousins do the same, to keep my family's teachings alive and pass them to my children if I'm lucky enough to have them.

These are a few of the projects and organizations I have in mind, and nothing would make be happier if you decide to support one or more. Also, I want to support others to reach their dreams, so I started visiting Kickstarter searching for projects I like and feel called to donate to, and have a few things I want to buy from Queer Druid's store, so feel free to do the same if possible.

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Wednesday, July 6, 2022

Manga: Puppy Love

Hi, pornies! Long time no see (er, read). I've been reforming a lot of things, had some stressful matters to attend regarding real and virtual life, but in the meanttime had my mind resting in a beautiful, wholesome manga you're gonna love if you like puppies (if you don't, get TF away from here). I'm talking about Puppy Love, by Tsuchida Haru. Thanks to the publisher for sending me a review copy!

  • Print Length: 192 pages
  • Publisher: TokyoPop (June 29, 2022).
  • Expected publication Date: June 29, 2022.
  • Genres: Drama, Fantasy, Gay, Homoerotic, Romantic, Yaoi.
  • Rating: 4 / 5 stars.
Inukai works at a company where he's exploited and unappreciated, but one day he stops at a pet shop and meets a gentle clerk named Hoshi. Playing with cute dogs and the soothing conversation with Hoshi makes Inukai decide to quit his job and change his life situation so he can have a dog of his own.
A memory comes to Hoshi suddenly, and he blurts out, "I'm the reincarnation of a dog you helped when you were a boy!"
A fluffy love story between a mysterious pet shop clerk and a mistreated corporate drone!

The story is so sweet it made me smile a lot. I had no problems in seeing myself in Inukai and how difficult it is for him to say no when there's someone in need. He's such a kind yet innocent soul is easy to feel sympathy for him. Hoshi is just as sweet and cute, although a little pushy at times. Their story developed in a good pace, showing the pros and cons of each, giving them the time to get to know each other and the chemistry to happen naturally.

There's hardly anything bad I can say about the art, if anything. Clean, fluent, easy to follow, and reflecting the cuteness of the whole story. It's the perfect complement for the manga, and while it's true that some scenes may convey drama or doom, it's still a whole story that gives hope and happiness at all times. There were many scenes that got me lost in the moment because of this.

What could have been better? The fantasy element. I feel it wasn't completely explored and given the importance it deserved. I didn't feel Inukai's reaction to Hoshi's confession was the best, which also affected the development and some of their interactions. It wasn't natural, although it matched the calming, relaxed tone of the manga, in a way.

If you liked The Cat Proposed, also published by TokyoPop, you're gonna enjoy this romance filled with innocence and wonder, . Tsuchida Haru took a simple thing, a story that doesn't surprise that much, and made it wonderful, filling my head with the kind of romance many could dream with.

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