Hello and welcome, pornies. I'm so happy to be back! I can't say 2021 was my best year, I'm sure it wasn't yours either (but if it was good for you, I'm really happy! Hopefully this will be much better!) But that's the funny thing with years: you can always improve. I want to take a look at this year and share a few thoughts with you regarding those plans I had. I also looked at last year's retrospective and found a few new things.
I actually ended up learning A LOT about Apollo and Cernunnos, but so much about Horus, even less about Antinous, by reading Jason Mankey's The Horned God of the Witches, and many more Gods, male spirits, and even a few Goddesses. It was one of my favorite readings (would you like to know them all? Let me know ^^ Not sure why I haven't done it!) And prompted many good conversations with one of my friends.
What's the deal with Horus and Antinous? I gave the topic some thought and realized that I'm not genuinely interested in them, or in pantheons in general. I like them, I find the myths appealing, creative triggering, but nothing more than that. Rather than deities, I prefer to work with spirits, be it those of the dead, fae, animal spirits, or anything else. Doesn't mean I just cut all my relationships with deities (there are a few that would get REALLY angry, let me tell you), but that my focus has moved in this respect. I'm not sure how to feel about it or interpret it, so if you do, let me know.
Although it wasn't one of the plans I had, I've been feeling I'm much better at necromancy. I didn't read a lot about the dead, about funerals, but I feel a stronger connection to my roots, to my dead, both beloved and mighty. I feel less alone and more in tune with them. The few times I did necromancy during2021, it was easier than before, it took less time to connect, to bid them farewell, and so on.
I wrote only once about the Alder King this year, but my practice and connection with him are much better as well. I've been thinking about this a lot, and far from wanting to write more often (although I'm happy to know two particular people I admire find those entries interesting-OMG!) I want to get even better, include him more often, and develop a solid practice with His Majesty.
The only thing I didn't manage to do was develop better psychic abilities. My divination sessions are great, but I still rely on them. I know it's not a bad thing, and I know 2021 wasn't a particularly easy year for me, so I want to make it up for it. I'm open to the possibility of not rereading Mat Auryn's book (not likely, because I really like it), but finding another book that resonates more with me. Who knows. I feel the same about exploring my sexuality in my craft, by the way.
Finally. I want to be more than a reviewer. I enjoy books, I love them, they mean a lot to me, but I've been blogging (as Kyler) for four years already (wow, I didn't realize this), but I want to start writing about myself more often and not so much about others. A few months ago, speaking with a cousin, I told him that I meditate by writing, which I never totally forgot. That's what I do, what I love, what i want to do for a living, and that's also how I learn more about myself.
As for the plans... I don't want to create any expectations for myself. I often ignore them because I find this and that. However, I do want to know more about everything. I want to keep learning, go beyond the basics. I've never been a fan of practice books, but I love theory. Those that explain how things work and the background, the history, the development of certain topics and techniques? I devour them in no time. There's one basic topic that has escaped me, however. Herbs.
I'm great at divination, sigils, stones, raising energy, but I know close to nothing about herbology. After chatting with a certain elder, he mentioned he was as disenchanted with the healthcare system as I am, and started learning about herbs and plants because of it. I'm not sure I'll enroll in a course or any kind of formation, but the few times I've used them to make teas I've gotten great results, I do want to know more about them and how to use them.
The last thing I can think about is the divination and bibliomancy readings I've been doing on Instagram. I enjoy it a lot, but I also need to pay the bills. At some point this year I'll be able to run a place where my identity remains safe and helps me in this regard. I've had a bittersweet relationship with money for a long time, and I want this to finally change.
So, to summarize:
- Develop better psychic abilities.
- Include my sexuality in my craft.
- Write more about me and my thoughts.
- Learn new things, stay away from basic books.
- Learn more about herbs and plants.
- Start an independent business.
What do you think? If you think there's something else I may need to add to the list, or there's a topic I forgot about and you know I like, let me know and I'll add it so I don't forget it.
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