Book review: Darkwater House

Hi pornies! How are you toda? Ready for Witching Season? ^^ I'm counting the hours before October begins! And what a better way to get into the mood than a spicy, dark romance with ghosts, murder and kink? Get your copy of Darkwater House, by Samuel King, and I promise you won't regret it! Thanks a bunch to Gay Book Promotions for the review copy!

• Print Length: 150 pages
• Publisher: Pride Publishing (September 29, 2020)
• Publication Date: September 29, 2020
• Genres: Gay, Homoerotic, Romance, Horror
• Rating: 4 / 5

When Toby meets his sexy neighbor Sean, he embarks on a new romance, but there’s also a haunting and a murder mystery to deal with.

There’s romance waiting for Toby at Darkwater House. Set on the edge of London’s beautiful Hampstead Heath, what better place for love to blossom with a stunningly handsome stranger?

But as Toby explores a passionate relationship with his dream man, dark forces are stirring within the walls of Darkwater House. There’s an angry spirit haunting the corridors and Albert the creepy landlord might be a killer.

As passion grows between Toby and his new neighbor Sean, they also work at unearthing the secrets of Darkwater House, looking for the evidence that will convict Albert, finally lay the angry ghost to rest and allow their love story to deepen.

Boy, I really liked this one! It is a spicy romance for sure and the dynamics between Sean and Toby are way too amazing to explain. I loved how things developed since they got to know each other, their personalities and their actions. Each one has its own charm, but if I had to pick I'd go with Sean because I felt him more real than any other character.

I'm also amazed with Albert. He gave me the chills since that first scene, and I couldn't stop cursing and insulting and hating him as the book progressed. Anyone would freak out with this creep, but I think Toby managed himself pretty fine. He seems to be a nice guy, but as human as anyone, he made some mistakes and overestimated himself. This made the story go into an intriguing path that, although predictable, made it all the more interesting.

The paranormal elements are on the front and center, although they don't get as much importance. Ghosts and apparitions mark the characters, but their scenes are rather short. Their charm, however, is in the author's writing style. Samuel King describes everything in detail when he needs to, and goes straight to the point when he had too. He certainly knows when to dwell deep in the story to keep you interested!

Darkwater House, by Samuel King, is a creepy horror novel, but there's a good dose of sex to arouse your senses. I loved it all much more because there wasn't a single scene that felt vulgar or felt as a cheap, graceless porn. They all came with some kink, which later became romance as the characters developed. While the ending felt a bit too quick for my taste, this queer horror novel made me shiver in every single chapter!

About Samuel King:

Samuel King is London born and bred, and spent his twenties and thirties hanging out on the London gay scene, mixing with some true characters and even finding romance on a few occasions. Now more likely to be found eating in a nice restaurant on a Saturday night than clubbing, he also enjoys reading across many genres and watching films--especially old horror films and romantic comedies. He has published three short erotic gay romances through Pride Publishing, The Black Mask, Hard Lessons and Mirror Man. Darkwater House is his first full-length gay romance. Website.

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Book review: Unfamiliar Familiars

Hi, pornies! How are you feeling today? I read an amazing book that gave me many smiles and several interesting tips about animal spirits. While it's mostly humor, Unfamiliar Familiars: Extraordinary Animal Companions for the Modern Witch, by Megan Lynn Kott  and Justin DeVine, has some curiousities and real facts. Thanks to the publisher for sending me a review copy of this book through NetGalley!

• Print Length: 139 pages
• Publisher: Chronicle Books LLC; Illustrated Edition (September 1, 2020)
• Publication Date: September 1, 2020
• Genres: Humor, Folklore, Magic
• Rating: 4 / 5

Unfamiliar Familiars is a comprehensive and humorous handbook to finding and caring for the unconventional animal companion.

This guide will help you find the animal best suited to your personality and particular magical needs.

Animals include a narwhal (strong in clairvoyance and fencing), an albatross (best for sea-faring witches), or an earthworm (for garden-based magic and fish summoning).

• Features real-world facts with a playful, magical spin.
• Includes a helpful quiz for finding your own familiar.
• Brimming with suggested names, strengths, weaknesses, and more.

Forget the toads and black cats: Every witch is unique, so shouldn't you have a familiar as one-of-a-kind and extraordinary as yourself?

Unfamiliar Familiars is an entertaining and educational guide to a menagerie of magical, less-appreciated creatures that may just become your ideal partner in the arcane arts.

I wasn't sure at first about this book, but man I'm glad I got it! It is so nicely edited evevery was a visual gift as I read it, and since it's not that long you can get done with it in a couple of minutes, so it's perfect if you're having a hectic schedule (like I am) but don't want to stop reading or having a good time. This one is a guaranteed smile-provider!

There is a full page illustration for each animal, all of them beautiful, detailed and with really nice colors. I'm a fan of watercolors, so I could be a bit biased in this regard, but I think this adds to the charm, not to mention some look too d*mn cute!

As for the descriptiosn, the mix both humor, biology facts, some folklore and cultural references. You get possible names for your familiar (and many are good, for real), correspondences, likes, dislikes, and several smiles as you read. Each animal has a lot of creativity in its space. I would have liked there to be a bit more text, but that's just me.

Megan Lynn Kott  and Justin DeVine created a great book for times like these! Unfamiliar Familiars: Extraordinary Animal Companions for the Modern Witch, is perfect for you if you want a quick, funny and interesting reading. It will make your spirits smile just like you will, while also including great artwork to lift your mood whenever you need to. By the way, give a hummingbird please!

About the authors:

Megan Lynn Kott has been working as a professional illustrator since 2006. In addition to creating beautiful watercolor pet portraits and traveling the craft fair circuit - Megan designs graphics, illustrations, and textiles for a variety of clients including Chronicle Books, Maximum Fun, Meowbox, and Tea Collection. When she isn't painting cats, she enjoys looking at animals in predicaments, drinking coffee, and sitting on her porch when the weather is pleasant. In addition to being an artist, she is a lifelong cat lover - her first word was "kitty." Her current work is created in Milwaukee, WI alongside her husband and 3 mischievous cats. Website.

Justin DeVine is a fine artist and illustrator from California, who now resides in the Midwest with his wife and too many cats. He likes bugs, sea creatures, haunted-looking buildings, Pentel pocket brush pens, the Muppets, breakfast foods, unnecessarily long lists, and oxford commas. Some notable clients of his include Patagonia, Amy’s Kitchen, Whole Foods Market, Old Navy, Rise Dispensaries, Belcampo Meat Co, and Wildlife Works. He has also done artwork for the podcasts the West Wing Weekly, Deep Night with Dale, and Scary Thoughts; bands Moors and the Peculiar Pretzelmen; singer-songwriter Zoe Boekbinder, animal activist Hannah Shaw (aka the Kitten Lady) and TV’s Adam Savage. Website.

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Mournday: Hexing Suicidal Thoughts + Spell

Growing up in Latin America, where everyone tells you “boys don’t cry,” expects that you lose your virginity before anyone else, and then sleep with a different girl every week, you can say being bisexual didn’t make it easy to me. When I was 13 years old, while my classmates talked about how they lost their virginity, I was trying to find a way to tell my best friend I was in love with him. 

Side Note: Working so I get that body. Image by 建鹏 邵 from Pixabay.

The following years, I dealt with depression, stress, anxiety, sleep disorders, insomnia, self-harm and suicidal thoughts. I was bullied verbally and physically since Elementary School for being the quiet boy with good grades and who would rather read than play sports. You get the picture. I was miserable.

I discovered Witchcraft in the middle of this mess. I read, practiced, consumed everything I could, sometimes creating problems where there were none before, but getting three things I didn’t have: control, power, and acceptance. It was okay to cry, to be queer, to be quiet… To be me. I felt so confident I even told some of my friends I was bi in Senior Year and then got out of the closet (only to my classmates.)

I was already an outsider with many labels, so why not add another one? It empowered me when my classmates told me I was the Satanic guy, and I may be guilty of threatening some of them once… Or twice. It wasn’t a substitute of the therapies my parents made me quit after the doctor told me that there was nothing to discuss about it if I was sure I was bisexual, and I told her I was, but it helped.

Life hasn’t been any kinder now that I’m 25 years old, though, not able to pay for therapy. I got a severe mental breakdown at the end of 2019, hurt myself and didn’t eat for a day and half. My head became clearer, I got better in a couple of days, and threw the incident to the back of my mind. Life goes on. But something had to change.

One of the first things I learned was writing down, on one side of a paper, the positive things about yourself and your life, and on the other the negative ones. Instead of helping, it always made me feel worse, but one night, feeling low again, I said I had enough. Unsurprisingly, the negative column was twice as long as the positive and took me a few minutes to write, while I struggled with the positive column. But I wasn’t done yet.

Following my intuition, I cut the paper in two and drew a pentacle on the positive list and an inverted one on the negative list with a red marker. Red is love, but also rage, which I had a lot of. Burning the negative list in my cauldron, I said “by the power in my voice and my blood, I send these energies to the Gods, so they are cleansed, transformed, triplicated thrice, so only then I get them back!” And did the same with the other, but said “by the power in my voice and my blood, I thank for these energies the Gods, so they are cleansed, triplicated thrice, and as such I’ll get them back.”

However, while looking at the smoke go away, calmer and relieved, the wind blew the ashes all over me. Really? Really? Before exploding, I drew a pentagram on my body: forehead, right hip, left shoulder, right shoulder, left hip, and forehead again, raised my arms and let go all of my anger whispering (because it’s rude to wake up anyone at midnight) “by the power in my voice and in my blood, I cleans my body, hearth, mind and soul!” It’s not a substitute, I still need therapy, but guess who’s feeling better than ages ago since then?

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Sondays: The magic of... semen? Myths about cum

Hello pornies. ^^ I hope you are doing great. There's something I've read a lot in some books and posts, but haven't gotten the details or reasons why: that there is magic in semen. Now, I know this has to be true and I never doubted it, but I wanted to know exactly why? What does it have that makes it a powerful material to include in Witchcraft, and how to actually do it?

One of the first things I found was that it was used as invisible ink, something discoverd by Sir George Mansfield Smith-Cumming, (Brendon, 1999) which makes a lot of sense, if you remember that semen, once dried, can only be seen under ultraviolet light. Like Cumming said, "every man (is) his own stylo". This makes me think of glamour, concealment and invisibility magic. Just started I already like this!

According to Gallup, Burch and Platek (2002), "semen may antagonize depressive symptoms and evidence which shows that the vagina absorbs a number of components of semen that can be detected in the bloodstream within a few hours of administration." In common English, this means that you can get happier with a healthy dose of cum. Also, Koelman, Coumans, Nijman, Doxiadis, Dekker, and Claas (2000), said that "that oral sex and swallowing sperm is correlated with a diminished occurrence of preeclampsia", meaning that it helps with cardio health. It's good both for the physical and metaphorical hearth, then.

Considering this, all hearth matters can be linked to semen, from happiness and depression to energy, physical health and resistance. It obviously has fertility and reproductive associations, but did you know it can also be a poison? It is said that Sumer creator God, Enki, ejaculated "the Tigris river into the landscapes that give birth to civilization. The ‘water’ mixes with dirt, and the first humans are made out of clay", but that He algo got sick 'from eating leaves made from his “spilled waters.”' (Titterington, 2017). By the way, Enki can also be considered Lord of the water and lord of semen (Leick, 2003). However, keep in mind that Sumerian "a" or "Ab" can mean both water and semen. (Benito, 1969).

On the other (not so sexy) hand, Mandal, MD (2019) tells us that: 

In Papua New Guinea some communities believe that semen provides sexual maturation to the younger men of the tribe. The tribes believe the semen of older men can bestow manliness and wisdom to the younger men and for this the men need to fellate their elders to receive their authority and powers.

Forgetting about the cultural differences, this links semen with wisdom, experience, leadership, manhood and maturity. This denotes the high level of intolerance and stigma surrounding LGBT+ people in this island (Tokstori, 2016), since it implies that cisgender male are the only ones who are "real" men.

Following with these ideas, Ancient Egypt had a similar conception. Titterington (2017) explains that Horus and Set fought hard for the throne of Egypt. When the ancestors called for Them to stop, Set tries to trick Horus having sex with Him, Set being the top, in order to make His nephew look less powerful for being dominated. Horus manages to catch Set's semen with His hand, and in the morning, Isis cuts it to feed a fish with it. She then masturbates Horus (according to mythology, She is His mother and also wife since He is Osiris incarnation), uses His semen to prepare a lettce for Set, who eats it for breakfast. When the Gods call for the semen of Set, after He boasts about dominating Horus, the fish comes, but when They do the same with Horus', a drop appears in Set's foreahead. In a plot twist, Thoth gets Horus' semen and puts it in his head, declaring Himself the king.

Since Thoth is the god of wisdom, writing, hieroglyphs, science, magic, art, judgment, and the dead (according to St. Wikipedia), it would create more associations, some of which I mentioned already. However, this is just the surface of what one could find, but I think it's been enough for one day, don't you think? Turns out that semen is actuall a spiritual bomb with several uses and associations. I hope you liked this article! Did you know any of the myths or ideas I included? Have suggestions for future articles? Let me know in the comments!

References:

• Benito, C., 1969. 'Enki And Ninmah' And 'Enki And The World Order': A Dissertation In Oriental Studies. Doctor of Philosophy. University of Pennsylvania.
• Brendon, P. (1999). The Spymaster Who Was Stranger Than Fiction. The Independent.
• Gallup, G. G., Jr, Burch, R. L., & Platek, S. M. (2002). Does semen have antidepressant properties? Archives of sexual behavior, 31(3), 289–293.
• Koelman, C. A., Coumans, A. B., Nijman, H. W., Doxiadis, I. I., Dekker, G. A., & Claas, F. H. (2000). Correlation between oral sex and a low incidence of preeclampsia: a role for soluble HLA in seminal fluid? Journal of reproductive immunology, 46(2), 155–166.
• Leick, G., (2003). Mesopotamia: The Invention Of The City. Illustrated Edition. New York: Penguin, p.20.
• Mandal, MD, A. (2019). Semen And Culture. [online] News-Medical.net. Available at https://www.news-medical.net/health/Semen-and-Culture.aspx
• te Velde, Herman (1967). Seth, God of Confusion: A Study of His Role in Egyptian Mythology and Religion. Probleme der Ägyptologie 6. Translated by van Baaren-Pape, G. E. (2nd ed.). Leiden: E. J. Brill. ISBN 978-90-04-05402-8.
• Titterington, D. (2017). 2. Egyptian Wet Dreams: When Semen Is Poison. Medium.
• Tokstori, M. (2016). Reclaiming Our Rainbow Cultural Identities. Rainbow Papua New Guinea. 

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Queer Pagan Interview: John Jennison

Good mornings, pornies! I hope you had a wonderful week. ^^ Today I come with an interview I had with a an amazing man I met on Instagram and who has great projects in the making. From a male centered tarot to a horror-movie inspired oracle deck, John Jennison doesn't seems to want to stop any time soon. We talked about his most recent project and future ideas, all of them totally worth checking out!

1. Which came first: Witchcraft or Queer Identity?

Aren't they kinda one and the same? But seriously for me it was Queer Identity. I don't know that most would consider me a witch in the traditional sense. I'm more of a creative that fell into a witches lifestyle and it just fit.

2. How would you describe your path as a Witch?

It was through art and horror. Growing up I always loved scary stories and movies. Anything dealing with the occult I couldn't get enough. Then in my 20's I kinda stepped away from it. When I entered my early 30's I was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer called Neuroendocrine Tumors or NET. It was the same cancer Steve Jobs had. It is a slow growing form of cancer and they have a few ways to slow it more. At this point, 10 years later, I have done almost all of them. That said being told you have cancer sets a person's mind spinning for purpose and asking bigger questions. I was never the religious type but have family members who I respect who are. I tried to search that path again but it wasn't for me. When I was a kid I was gifted a deck of tarot cards that I loved but never really got the hang of reading. While going through some stuff I came upon them and started "playing" with them. This time something just clicked and I started to understand the cards more, the structure and the symboles just seemed to come more naturally to me. Since then I have used tarot on my journey for understanding the world around me. I've created a deck of Queer Masculine Centric cards and now I'm completing an oracle of spooky ghosts and haunted objects which I'm excited to share with the world.

3. Do you feel your sexuality has played a role in it?

Yes, being a queer cis male has definatly shown me a different path than the ones of most of my family. There was never really that acceptance one needs from the church and I am not the type to force myself into someone else's mold. The path of the witch isn't as cut and dry and honestly I didn't consider myself a witch until recently.

4. You first worked on the Mystic Male Tarot. How was it like to work on it? What made you create a male-oriented tarot deck?

When I started the project back in 2018 there were few queer centric masculine themed tarot decks. The ones that did exist tended to focus on cis males and left out a lot of the queer masc community that I was a part of or that friends were a part of out. So I wanted to try to create something more inclusive using as many body shapes, ethnicities and ages as I could. Looking at the deck now I think I did a pretty good job of representing the queer masculine world but it can always be better. If I ever revisit it for a 2nd edition I have lots of ideas to make it stronger and more inclusive.

5. In general, do you think there's a difference when it's a man or a woman who uses the cards, either tarot or oracle decks?

I think there is a difference whenever any single person is using the deck. With tarot you bring your own personal experience to each reading. So if a female identifying person is doing the reading she is going to have views on masculine ideals that other females don't. It's less about the gender of the reader and more about the experiences they have had. I wanted to create a deck that could bring out positive vibes to a person who views masculinity as negative. There are positives and negatives to all aspects of living. Gender is a hot button topic and my goal was to include a deck that addressed some of those ideas and issues. Did it work? For me yes and I'm sure it will for some other folks too. But is my deck for everyone? No, and that is ok!

6. This Deck Is Haunted is your second deck, and it's a set of oracle cards, quite dark, which I love! Why an oracle based on haunted objects? How did you come with this idea?

It's funny, I don't think of it as dark but it really is. THIS DECK IS HAUNTED came about because of my love of ghost stories! But the real truth is that it started as a bunch of cards I had scribbled types of ghosts and haunted things on. I would use these cards to pull and see what was "haunting" my life that day. Then one night I was working on a project that I just couldn't connect with. Frustrated, I picked up my iPad and just started making a card based on this oracle I used to kinda clear my head. Next thing I know, 5 hours have passed and I have the bases of 4 of the cards and the deck was born! The next few weeks the cards flew out of me like a man possessed.

7. Do you think darker decks work differently than common ones?

I think decks bring out what the reader needs them to bring out. Like I said I don't see this deck as "dark" persay. I like to find the underlying story element or moral that a ghost story may have and then work from there. I was always fascinated with childhood ghost stories and that is really what this deck is about. It's finding the hidden, feeling those emotions you felt when you were young and you felt like death and dying held big secrets and you were going to be the one to crack the answers.

8. Besides the basic differences between tarot and oracle decks, would you say there are certain readings that work better with this deck than with the Mystic Male Tarot?

Absolutely! This deck is all encompassing and feeds off energy that is all around us and ideas that go passed just masculine divine. Whereas, the MMT focuses on a reader's relationship to the male energy and how to focus what are typically thought of as masculine ideals. THIS DECK IS HAUNTED channels the ghosts around you. Your ancestors, the spirits of the land, the spirits of your youth. These cards ask you to work on your fears and why unknown things affect you in certain ways.

9. Looking back in time, let's say, five years ago, which is your most significant change?

I've lived with cancer for over 10 years, that was my biggest turning point as far as dealing with spirituality. I've done many treatments to keep my cancer and lifestyle balanced. So I think if we were to talk about five years ago it would be changing to another new treatment. Each time I start something new you have two thoughts. Is this the once that cures me? Or is this the one that kills me? These are rough thoughts to process and I think that my way of processing is creating art around those feelings.

10. What are your plans for the future?

This is always a hard question. Right now I just started a new treatment, so in the short term I'm going to kick some cancer ass, finish and print THIS DECK IS HAUNTED cause we got funded but there are still a lot of stretch goals I'd love to see get backed! In the long term I hope to have more announcements about THIS DECK IS HAUNTED, I have a YA dinosaur tarot deck that is in the works for 2021 and I want to spend as much time with the people that I love as I can. At the end of the day it's always about the relationships you build.

11. Which would be your advice for future Witches and Pagans?

Love as hard as you can for as long as you can, cause it may not alway be there but you will be better for the experience! And making things that make you a better person will make the world a better place for everyone to live. 

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Book review: Possessed - Duty and Sacrifice 3

Hi there you guys. I hope you are okay. ^^ I said I would take a break from the Alder King and I meant it, so here we are with the next book in the God Jar's Saga, the third and final one of the first trilogy: Possessed: Duty and Sacrifice 3, by Devon Vesper. Thanks to Gay Book Promotions for sending me a copy of this book and next ones!

• Saga: The God Jar's Saga #3
• Print Length: 306 pages
• Publisher: Magelight Press (December 12, 2017)
• Publication Date: December 12, 2017
• Genres: Fantasy Romance, M/M Gay Romance
• Rating: 3 / 5

Valis works as a man possessed, but there’s no outrunning the past.

In war training, Valis advances quickly, but in magic training, he’s lucky not to blow himself up trying to wield his dual magic. Constant growth spurts make him outgrow his training armor and his attraction to his mentor, Tavros, rising to molten levels puts Valis under added pressure.

And there’s one more problem Valis can’t seem to shake—his birth father, Roba. He demands Valis pay him a visit in exchange for information, but his request is one Valis can’t accept.

But Roba is not a man who deals well with being told no, and he will do everything in his power to get his way. And his way may just haunt Valis forever.

I have to be honest. I expected a lot in this book because it started way too good. There was action, magic, intrigue and mystery. There was potention for something great, perhaps a good fight, which made get excited as I advanced. However, I found the total opposite, which is not bad in the strict sense of the word, but I'm still a bit downhearted.

The thing is that everyone, and I mean every-single-character in the novel, treats Valis as if he's gonna break down in shards any second now. I get he's been through hell several times, but I'm severely concerned that doing so many things for him could do any good in the long term. This will change after this book, thankfully, because it was becoming bothersome.

There are some twists here and there, and a major-ly gross scene that made me shiver for a while (didn't see that coming, I'll give you that, Devon!) These kept me interested, and I would lie if I didn't say I didn't like this novel becayse the characters and ideas are great. There is also some character development, so while not my favorite so far in the saga, the third book still gave a good time.

While the style became a little erratic, along with the plot (there is one scene that didn't have have any reason to happen, honelty, and had a major impact in the book,) Devon Vesper took some risks in Possessed: Duty and Sacrifice 3. I'm looking forward to what happens next and how the characters fare this time, far away from their comfort zone.

About Devon Vesper:

Born on a Navy base in Patuxent River, Maryland, Devon has traveled the world, living in Sigonella, Sicily for three years, and visiting many European countries before moving back to the states around the age of seven. She’s lived in Florida for sixteen years, Oklahoma for a year, and Pennsylvania for the rest. She graduated from surgical technology school near the top of her class in 2004, and uses her medical and worldly knowledge to enrich her books whenever possible. Since she has bipolar disorder, PTSD, social anxiety disorder, general anxiety disorder, clinical depression, and has trouble leaving her house due to all that, Devon works full time as an author and editor, and spends as much time as she can talking to other authors and her readers. Website.

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Book Review: The Bachmann Family Secret

Good mornign, beutiful peple. ^^ I hope youre getting ready for the weekend. I sure am! Today I come with a book I liked a lot. The Bachmann Family Secret, by Damian Serbu, was a nice coming-of-age and coming-out novel to remind you of being a teenager scared of the world. Thanks a bunch to the publisher for sending me a review copy through NetGalley!

• Print Length: 269 pages
• Publisher: NineStar Press (July 27, 2020)
• Publication Date: July 27, 2020
• Genres: Romance, Gay, Homoerotic, Fantasy, YoungAdult
• Rating: 3 / 5

Jaret Bachmann travels with his family to his beloved grandfather’s funeral with a heavy heart and, more troubling, premonitions of something evil lurking at the Bachmann ancestral home. But no one believes that he sees ghosts.

Grappling with his sexuality, a ghost that wants him out of the way, and the loss of his grandfather, Jaret must protect his family and come to terms with powers hidden deep within himself.

The story is appealing, the characters are cute and I liked the ideas a lot. A young guy struggling with his sexuality AND freaked out because his dead grandpa wants to communicate with him? Me wants! (er, wanted?) Jaret was a lovely character I identified with in a blink. He reminds me of mysef when I was his age. Although eighteen years old, he's still figuring out how to come out, both as gay and a medium or whatever that gift means he is.

There is not much erotic content in this book. In fact, you will only get some kinky comments and kisses, but it's because the story focuses on Jaret's gift, his interaction with such a retrograde family, his own past and his present. It's hard not to want to be there for him! I felt the same way, so reliving those emotions made me daydream more than I expected. This is such a cute and simple story it was like a breath of fresh air.

However, I felt this was too much of an instalove story for my taste. There are things that make sense, but there are others, and I'm speaking only about romance here, that don't. There wasn't enough development, which left me feeling a bit unfamiliar with the couple. Also, the ending wasn't what I expected. The final battle wasn't... a battle at all. I'll leave it like that to avoid spoilers, but trust me, it could have been better.

I liked the simplicity in The Bachmann Family Secret. Damian Serbu has a descriptive, emotional style that makes you smile and feel bad because of the characters. They feel real many times through the novel, which is easy to read and enjoy. While there could have been a better development, I was pleased with how things ended. That final scene made me smile like an idiot!

About Damian Serbu:

Damian Serbu lives in the Chicago area with his husband and two dogs, Akasha and Chewbacca. The dogs control his life, tell him what to write, and threaten to eat him in the middle of the night if he disobeys. He has published The Vampire’s Angel and The Vampire’s Protégé with NineStar Press. Keep up to date with him on Facebook, Twitter, or at www.DamianSerbu.com.

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Sexdays: Fueling my Bisexual Fire on Mabon! + Ritual

Hello, hello, hello! Pornies, I hope you are GREAT today. I just did a ritual to heal inner wounds and past memories related to my sexuality. Long story short? It was AWEsome! (Of course this entry is scheduled to come at the right time; I did this at midnight). I needed some me-time, a bit of focus on who I was, am and want to (and am going to) be.

So, first, let's take a look at what St. Wikipedia says about today's Holy Day for Bi people:

Celebrate Bisexuality Day (also called Bisexual Pride Day, Bi Visibility Day, CBD, Bisexual Pride and Bi Visibility Day, and Bisexuality+ Day) is observed annually on September 23 to recognize and celebrate bisexual people, the bisexual community, and the history of bisexuality.

I won't go into the details of how this day came to be. You can already read it on Wikipedia. What I do want to talk about is about the Bisexual Fire, a visualization I've been working with for some months now, along with the ritual I did. I felt amazing, liked the symbolism, and like everything I do, it was all intuitive, with little to no planning, using what I had at hand in my home.

First of all, bisexual fire is not just purple fire. It feels warm, but it can also feel warm, cool, cold, or any other way. It can feel like chills or tingling in the body, like an orgasm in smaller, more controlled scale. Bisexual Fire can be purple, violet, lilac, lavender, or any shade between pink and blue, those two colors included. Its flames can have different shades of color at the same time, and different sensations may happen at the same time as well.

I started exercising at home a few moths ago, and one night I felt I needed a boost, some recharge. Remmebering that I read somewhere shamans exhaust their bodies as a mean to cross to the other side, and that it's a way to create enegy, I imagined purple embers around me as I did my routine, and when I needed that boost, lying on the floor, I blew hard, drawing all the air out of my lungs, and imagined it exploding like purple fire around me, completely engulfing me. I did it once, twice, three times, and more, and it always worked.

For today I wanted to do something special, something focused on me as a bisexual witch man. I always work for someone else, I do this for my friends, that for my family, and this for my house. I wanted something for myself, moi. So I decided to honor my bisexuality and the the way I see the world becuase of it. However, what started as a honoring ritual ended as a healing on. Here's the scheme if you want to do it, and feel free to add, change or take out anything that doesn't resote with you; this is intended for anyone inside the bisexual spectrum:

You will need: One candle of any color with a small plate (mine were both white); the Bisexual Witch Sigil drawn with pencil in a small piece of paper; cauldron or any fireproof vessel (I used my cauldron); a purple/violet/lavender/whatever-shade crayon; The Devil tarot card; six purple/violet/lavender/whatever-shade flowers (mine were dried rose periwinkles); an amethyst; a pentacle; incense of your preference (mine was tangerine's); a special clothing or accessory; your favorite song, preferably one related to your sexuality or your desire related to it (mine).

• 1. Set the candle on the small plate by melting part of the base to make it firm. With three flowers, make an inverted triangle on the plate that surrounds the candle, with the petals pointing out. With the remaining three, make an upright triangle on the plate as well, with the petals pointing inward toward the candle. Light both the candle and incense, and put your favorite song at full volume (put it on replay, just in case) and your clothing or accessory.
• 2. Place the pentacle behind the candle, and put the amethyst (if you don't have one, use a crytal quartz) on the fifth point, the one that points upward. Finally, place the Devil card behind the candle (careful not to burn it!) and try to put it upright, so you can look directly at it. With the sigil in front of you, go over the pencil lines with the crayon, and hold it with both hands when finished. Close your eyes.
• 3. Get carried away by the song. Sing out loud, low, hum, or focus on it. Let your body move, enjoying the rhythm and freedom. Visualize the first painful memory that comes to you, open your eyes, send it to the flames of the candle, transmute it with the amethyst, and may the Devil take it away. Thank it and transform it into pleasure, something that you can be proud of having overcome. Repeat this if you need, as many times as you need. Then, close your eyes, feel the air vibrate around you, and call out your bisexual fire with your own words. Let it take whatever form it wants, and follow its lead. Say or think: "Purple pentacle, core of (flower*), shine true and shine bright, let your flame bathe my life".
• 4. Let the fire bathe you instead of consumn you, like a second, new skin melting down the old one. Picture yourself free, happy, living your best life, and before the song ends, light the paper with the candle. Burn it right in front of you, in the cauldron or vessel, and feel your wishes coming true. Picture yourself again, this time bathed and covered in bisexual fire. A fire capable of transforming and healing, blessing and protecting. A fire that's yours to command. Let the candle burn if you like, put it out with your breath or fingers.  Record the experience, share if you want.

One of the entities I work with payed me a visit in step 2, but I'd rather keep that part a secret, and, at the end of step 3, I felt three rings around me, like a cage that protected me and coul set anything dangerous on fire. I felt fearless, relaxed and happy. I was crying becuase of the song, but I was happy AF!

I felt weightless and free, ready to do whatever I had t in order to stay like that. Of course, this doesn't mean all my problems just poofed out of my life, but I feel hopeful about the future. I feel more prepared. If you decide to do this spell-ritual, let me know what it was like for you!

* Use whievever rose your want to use. However, I strongly suggest Hydrangea for bisexuality; Hyacinth and Morning Glory for bi men, Violets for bi women, and any other flower within the blue/purple/pink spectrum. I intended to use hydrangea, but since my problems are for being a man, hyacinth came all of a sudden.

Kinky regards, K!

911 reasons not to die this Mabon

Hi there! I hope you are doing okay, pornies. ^^ It's been a while since I talked about Gaga in here. Although I LOVE her, her music is such an important part of me that I try to avoid touch the topic now and then (I may be paranoid, but I'm afraid someone would notice that me and the real me share this interest; you can neveer be too careful). However, I was in cloud nine since she released her newest video, 911.

Seriously, is there something this woman can't do? She never ceases to surprise me, and this video as not the exception. One of the reasons I admire her is because of how open she is about mental health and how important it is to actually care about it. This message is crytal clear in 911. Gaga literally puts herself between life and death in this video.

I won't go on and on about what it means, the references, or any kind of analysis. Art is not meant to be understood but appreciated, and that's what I want to do today, to appreciate the video, but also want to propose a prompt for today. Since it's the Autumn Equinox, Mabon, or any other name you want to call it (seriously, what's the matter about the name? Call it Frabwen if you want and if it makes sense for you; it's Mabon for me), today's a day to say thank you and celebrate wonder, but also to procede with caution and be prudent.

Keywords are something I use a lot, and today's holiday are Gratitude, Wonder and Prudence for me. What I propose to do, before, during, or after your usual ritual (and feel free to use my Mabon sigil if you want), is to think about those bittersweet memories, those times when you were careless, imprudent, selfish and put yourself in the hardest time of your life so far. Go back there, when you wanted to call 911 in any form but were unable to do so.

Get back in time, allow yourself to be vulnerable again as we go deeper into the darkness. Day and night last the same time today, but starting tomorrow the days will be shorter, darkness will reign, which is not good or evil but what you want it to be. Feel afraid, sad, scared, and let the scars be visible again. Then say thank you. Thank the pain, the tears, the fear, the scars, the blood, the cries and the shudders.

This year has been hard for all of us in many ways. Some of us had HORRIBLE times this year so far, and I'm including myself because there were many times that I asked "Why? Damnit, why?" I've learned a lot, and I know I will learn more before 2020 ends, the easy or hard way. I'll want a 911 again, I'm sure of it, but I'm also sure I'll come alive.

If you do this, and by all means, let me know what it was like for you. I'll see you tomorrow, on Celebrate Bisexual Day, with my experience. Happy Equinox, pornies!

Kinky regards, K!

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Mournday: Dreaming with La Santa Muerte

Hi, pornies! How was your weekend? This seems like will be a good week. I wanted to talk you about an experince I had a few months ago, when I woke up in the middle of the night after dreaming with a certain folk saint. La Santa Muerte. I read about Her now and then before the dream, so I knew a bit of what She represents and stands for, but there wasn't a real interestbeyond mere curiosity. Things changed a bit after that.

For those unfamiliar with her, Nuestra Señora de la Santa Muerte (Spanish for Our Lady of the Holy Death), is a Mexican, folk saint that has been surrounded in controversy since the beginning. She is associated with healing, protection, and safe delivery to the afterlife by Her devotees, and doesn't judge who comes to Her to ask something. This has its pros and cons, as in everything.

On the pro side, She accepts social minorities, such as the LGBT+ community, sex workers, and all kind of social outcasts, because Death doesn't judge. On the con side, she's also popular among thieves, drug dealers, and all kinds of criminals who ask for Her favor when doing their business. This obviously doesn't help, but again, Death doesn't judge.

This seems to be a core concept in her following. As long as you are clear in keep your words when praying to Santísima, follow Her practices with respect and seriousness, She will give you what you ask for, whether it's good or bad. There are Catholic elements in the cult, but in general this seems to be the most common thing one hears and read when geting to know this figure.

Now, that night I spoke about, I dreamed I was in a dark room, sitting on a large table with a man on hte other side, right in front of me. I remember he was trying to manipulate me and make me do things I didn't want to, but nothing sexual. At some point, we strated fighting, he almost had me there, but then I overpowered them all of a sudden, and said something in the lines of "Don't you know I have La Niña Blanca (The White Girl) by my side? That La Santa Muerte walks with me? I'm not alone". He fought a bit more, but then I woke up.

When I talked about it on Twitter, someone told me there's a secret Facebook Group where I could learn more about Her. I made my account (which lately has gotten tons of friend requests from total strangers! It gives me the creeps, really, sorry for that), and was accepted. I'm working with some issues, because I have to, and I have a bit of a hard time including Catholic beliefs in my practice. I need to put a clear division and I'm still unsure about how to do this, but I'm improving!

What have I learned reading and exploring the world of La Santa Muerte? First of all, it is the biggest memento mori reminder, and that She doesn't judge (although I look at Death as genderless; I only use femenine pronouns with Santísima). Death is not dangeroes, Death is whatever you believe it is and whatever you want it to be. This reminds me a lot about the Death tarot card, which speaks about changes and evolution. Somethig old needs to die in order for something new to be born.

One of the few things that surprised me is that I was told She often approaches people by dreams and nagging thoughts, and I certainly couldn't stop thinking about Santísima after that dream. I kept looking for meaning but wasn't sure whether She was calling me in any sense. I'm still not sure if this is a path I want to explore further, the differences are way too many to feel comfortable, but... Who said dying is?

Have you had an experience with La Santa Muerte? Let me know in the comments. ^^ Same if you know about any free resource (Youtube channel, blog, course... whatever, actually) about Her that is trust-worthy.

Kinky regards, K!

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Book Review: Talos - Bloodlines of Fate, Book One

Hi there pornies! I hope you are well and safe. ^^ I come with a book I wanted to tell you about because of how creative it is and the topics it touches. While there's some serious themes in it, Talos, by A.G. Carothers, the first book in the Bloodlines of Fate saga, made me smile and... have a reeeeeaaaally good time more than I thought. Thanks a bunch to Gay Book Promotions for the review copy!

• Print Length: 195 pages
• Series: Bloodlines of Fate #1
• Publisher: Selfpublished (September 8, 2020)
• Publication Date: September 8, 2020
• Genres: Romance, Gay, Homoerotic, Fantasy, Vampires, Omegaverse
• Rating: 3.5 / 5

"Tell me a story Daddy." Kikoi, xolos wrangler by night and King Talos' snuggle monster by day, demanded.

"What story do you want to hear tonight, baby boy?" Talos, Vampyr King and Supernatural Council Member, asked while he pulled Kikoi onto his lap.

"I want to hear about when you met Daddy Bayne." Almost three hundred years old and Kikoi would never get tired of story time.

"Again?" Talos arched an eyebrow with amusement.

"Yes! It's a good one." Kikoi beamed at Talos. 

alos leaned against the headboard of their bed as Bayne, former assassin but still looked damn good in armor, joined them and began...

The Age of Man has passed, and a new age is upon the Earth. An age of magic and technology ruled by the supernatural beings that once hid amongst humanity has begun.

Bayne is thrust into a world he thinks he knows but quickly discovers his whole life has been built on lies. Talos, perfectly happy ruling his corner of the world, is faced with an unexpected and unwelcome change that comes with the mate chosen by Fate. Together they must discover how to live and, in the end, love one another. Fate has more in store for them than learning to love someone they should hate. Will they be open to all the possibilities Fate lays out for them?

Bloodlines of Fate is a new urban fantasy series set in a world destroyed by humans and resurrected by supernatural beings. Fate has many plans for the vampires, unicorns, therianthropes, elves, and humans of this new world. While their mates may be fated, love isn't that easy.

This book contains depictions of gladiatorial combat, snarky fem twinks who will cut you, kings in stilettos, and awkward heats with a pinch of daddy kink.

The story is quite simple, taking place in a world where humans have lost power. A new kind of vampire rules and makes sure that damages done by humanity is taken care of. However, the remaining mortals are not that okay with this idea and they are more than willing to do whatever it takes to get back their so called position of power.

Talos is one hell of a character! I liked that he (should I say they? Seems like a better option). Far from perfect, King Talos makes some mistakes and tries to repair the damage, while also giving us a glimpse of this new vampiric race, their traits and... pastimes. Please, someone take me there! The descriptions were sexy but far from pornographic (there were bits now and then, but's just enough).

I would have liked to have more character development, however. I know this is a fated-lovers kind of romance and that it's supposed to be fast, and I was amazed when Talos explained how the bond between him and Bayne would work, but it all happened to fast! There was not enough time for these characters to really mean what they said to each other, with some exceptions you will notice when you read this book.

Talos was a good first book in the series, one I want to see developing, and presents an intriguing society. A.G. Carothers doesn't goes into much detail in about how things work on it besides some basic information, and I get the feeling there's something more about to come. Thankfully, book 2 comes this october! ^^ So the wait won't be that long.

About A.G. Carothers:

A.G. Carothers is actually a dragon very cleverly disguised as a human. They are a non-binary author of LGBTQIA Romance and Urban Fantasy, who enjoys writing original and entertaining stories. They are very excited to share the worlds they've created with you.

A.G. currently lives in Tennessee with their platonic life partner, who is not a dragon. They yearn to live back in Europe and will some day. In their spare time they are addicted to losing themselves in the lovely worlds created by other authors

A.G. is committed to writing the stories they see in their head without restrictions. Love is blind and doesn't see gender, race, or sexuality.

Have you read this book? Would you recommend it or not? Let me know in the comments! Kinky regards, K!

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